Monster that I am

In this world is it right for me to even want love?
The things I've done
Indescribable
I'm worth less than your time

Holding my hand like this, how can you stand to touch me?
Monster that I am
Escape while you can…
I'm not worth your tears
I don't even cry for myself
Only for those who know me…

How can you sit there and look at me with those eyes?
How can you smile when I'm terrified?
How can you touch me as if you love me?
I don't understand you at all…

I wish I'd disappear
Never haunting you
I wish you'd forget about me
So you could be happy
I bring nothing but pain and betrayal
Why are you so blind to this?

Monster that I am
I'll only add to your misery
Monster that I am
I'm not worth loving
Monster that I am
How can you touch me?!
My life has no meaning at all
Please walk away now…

Don't kiss me
Don't hug me
Don't rub my back
Don't look at me
Don't love me
I CAN'T DEAL WITH WHAT I DON'T UNDERSTAND!
I don't understand you!
I don't understand how you can look at me and smile!
As if you love me…
Don't say that…
(Don't you love me?)
Don't do that…
(I think I love you)
I just can't…

The monster that I am
So fucking messed up!
Like hell I'll stick around!
I'm insane I know…
So don't love me!
Don't love me!
Please don't love me!
I fucking hate myself!

You're confusing…
The way you are…
You never leave me
Always hold my hand
Always kiss me
Always hug me
Always love me!
Always look at me like you see something more!
Why do you love me?
Why do you love me?
…how can you love me?
You deserve much more than me…